you're underneath my wings so i'll free fall out of the sky

Hilary came over yesterday. I was a little scared to ever do anything with her again, is that mean? I just knew that I really hurt her with the whole choosing to live with Nikki thing over her. I just hate conflict, I knew it would have conflict, so I tried to stay away from it. Can you really blame me? But it was fun. She only brought up the room mate thing once. 

We wereeeeeee going to play rockband but Im guessing Tyler took it somewhere because it wasn't here. And he was at Canada's Wonderland  so I couldnt force him to go get it. Which is okay because I really hate rockband. Well hate isnt the correct word.. Everyone is just like a million times better at it than I am so of course I dont wanna play. Then again,you think I would be used to people being better than me.

I always question peoples motives when they ask to hang out. That's bad isnt it? Well I dont know, it's just really odd. Like having someone that you've known since grade 3 and used to be your best friend just to randomly call you whenever THEY need you. I guess that's what friends are for. I have to stop feeling used.

I told her all about online people and she almost fainted after I told her I've met 6. But it was fun. We are going to chalk sometime soon sooooooo yay?

In other news, I have my interview in 2 days. I still dont have references. I better get on that.