time goes by so slowly.

Time makes me really anxious. It always has. I remember the first week of grade nine I had a nervous breakdown because of time. I was scared I wasn't going to get enough sleep so I would go to bed at like 9pm and not beable to fall asleep. 1am rolls around andI would still be trying to sleep but couldn't because I then was only worried about getting 7 hours of sleep and it was keeping me awake.Now fast forward to the present, when I would go to school on 3 hours of sleep just because I could.
Well the same feeling is happening now. I'm going to college pretty soon. The truth is I don't even know the day I start or how many days it isbefore I go because again it makes me anxious. Even now when I write this I'm shaking and really worried inside. Trying to listen to Bedouin Sound Clashand just calm down. I have to work today in an hour in 15 minutes but I want to write this first. See again time is in the way. I asked if I could come in from 7-12 instead of 4-12 because I wanted to spend time with my dad today.
The thing that worries me the most about college is that my alarm clock wont work and I'll sleep in and miss my class. Like now I dont even use my alarm clockbecause I hate knowing what time it is all the time. I'm happiest when I have no clue what time it is and have no where to be and no where to go. And if I do have a clockI always sent it a hour and 20 minutes ahead of the right time. It just calms me down to know I'm ahead of time. I think for college though I already have a battery powered alarm clockincase the power goes out and my plug in one doesn't wake me up. I'll also set my cell phone and maybe tell my parents to call me depending on the time of my class.
The thing that worries me the most though is, is it common to be this anxious of time? Or am I going to break down someday because it's not heathly to be thisworked up over something so helpful? Damn it. I just want Dr. Phill.