backbeat the word was on the street that the fire in your heart is out

I JUST FAILED TWO EXAMS.
I don’t know. Like I really just want to give up. I want to go into the fetal position, and I want to cry. I feel like Im not trying enough, BUT IM TRYING TO TRY. It’s so fucking hard. And the thing is, I don’t feel like anyone can comfort me.

And the thing is, I have no idea who to turn to. I feel like everyone has let me down lately. Like every single person in my life just turned out to be a two faced lying piece of ass trash. And the few people that I still have in my life, have just made a big deal about it, WHEN IT ISNT A BIG DEAL. Failure shouldn’t be made a big deal. Everyone fails.
Fuck life. Fuck everyone. Just fuck.
I have no idea what to do or why Im posting. Why do i want to admit my failure to my future self. So I can look back and see how stupid I really was?

well fuck.